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It's the strangest thing.
For years I worked early mornings. It was okay, you know? I would get to work early, leave early, and feel pretty okay about the whole thing.
Then last year I was switched over to working... if not overnight, at least late nights. And we all groaned about it, because we weren't used to it. But it was all right for me in the end, because I got more time to spend with my SO, who tends to stay up late into the night for no apparent reason.
At that point, the powers that be decided that for some reason the overnight thing wasn't working out, and switched us back to early mornings. I wake up at half-past four my time every morning, head to work at six, and I'm done by three most days. It doesn't sound so bad, and it's what I did for years before the change, but I just can't seem to do it anymore. I'm walking around dead every morning, yawning constantly, running the risk of dozing off if I as much as stay still or lean against something for a few seconds too long. I generally have to nap during my lunch hour just to get through the day, and sometimes I fall asleep during my fifteen-minute break, too. When I get home I'm usually too exhausted to do anything much for the rest of the night, but when I actually try to go to bed, no matter how tired I am, I can't sleep!
So I'm on vacation this week, and still went to bed fairly early last night - ten-ish, I think. I woke up briefly again at seven or so, because I was trying to make sure that my SO made it out of the house to a LARP event. I tried to stay up - I was hungry, I should've at least been able to motivate myself to eat something - but I was so tired that I decided to go back and nap for an hour or so.
I slept until almost two in the afternoon and felt about a million times better.
And now? I feel great. I didn't get as much exercise done as I would've liked, but aside from that I had a very productive day. I got two thousand words of a second draft of a short story finished. I got out of the house and hung out with friends. I just finished playing a bit of SWTOR (maybe an hour or so.) It's one in the morning here, and I feel fantastic, wide awake and ready to do something... although there's still the nagging thought that I would have to be awake three hours from now on a work day, and I shouldn't get used to it.
Except I already AM used to it - isn't that the problem? I have no idea how I managed to completely reprogram my circadian rhythms over a period of a few months, to a point that they remained programmed that way after an even longer period of trying to go back to the same routine I followed for years, but I did. Somehow, over those few months that I stayed up until two or so at my job, my body has gotten so used to that schedule that it outright seems to be resisting any attempts to change it.
But my morning job can't be gotten rid of anytime soon, and even if I found another job it would probably involve day-shift hours. I'm going to have to deal with this somehow. I just... don't know how. And I'm honestly baffled at the whole thing.
(tl;dr - my body wants me to work swing shift and I have to work day shift, help)
For years I worked early mornings. It was okay, you know? I would get to work early, leave early, and feel pretty okay about the whole thing.
Then last year I was switched over to working... if not overnight, at least late nights. And we all groaned about it, because we weren't used to it. But it was all right for me in the end, because I got more time to spend with my SO, who tends to stay up late into the night for no apparent reason.
At that point, the powers that be decided that for some reason the overnight thing wasn't working out, and switched us back to early mornings. I wake up at half-past four my time every morning, head to work at six, and I'm done by three most days. It doesn't sound so bad, and it's what I did for years before the change, but I just can't seem to do it anymore. I'm walking around dead every morning, yawning constantly, running the risk of dozing off if I as much as stay still or lean against something for a few seconds too long. I generally have to nap during my lunch hour just to get through the day, and sometimes I fall asleep during my fifteen-minute break, too. When I get home I'm usually too exhausted to do anything much for the rest of the night, but when I actually try to go to bed, no matter how tired I am, I can't sleep!
So I'm on vacation this week, and still went to bed fairly early last night - ten-ish, I think. I woke up briefly again at seven or so, because I was trying to make sure that my SO made it out of the house to a LARP event. I tried to stay up - I was hungry, I should've at least been able to motivate myself to eat something - but I was so tired that I decided to go back and nap for an hour or so.
I slept until almost two in the afternoon and felt about a million times better.
And now? I feel great. I didn't get as much exercise done as I would've liked, but aside from that I had a very productive day. I got two thousand words of a second draft of a short story finished. I got out of the house and hung out with friends. I just finished playing a bit of SWTOR (maybe an hour or so.) It's one in the morning here, and I feel fantastic, wide awake and ready to do something... although there's still the nagging thought that I would have to be awake three hours from now on a work day, and I shouldn't get used to it.
Except I already AM used to it - isn't that the problem? I have no idea how I managed to completely reprogram my circadian rhythms over a period of a few months, to a point that they remained programmed that way after an even longer period of trying to go back to the same routine I followed for years, but I did. Somehow, over those few months that I stayed up until two or so at my job, my body has gotten so used to that schedule that it outright seems to be resisting any attempts to change it.
But my morning job can't be gotten rid of anytime soon, and even if I found another job it would probably involve day-shift hours. I'm going to have to deal with this somehow. I just... don't know how. And I'm honestly baffled at the whole thing.
(tl;dr - my body wants me to work swing shift and I have to work day shift, help)
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Date: 2013-05-24 04:24 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2013-05-24 04:34 pm (UTC)From:Lipton's basic black tea is pretty decent to start; it's cheap, and if you decide you like it you can theoretically branch out into the flavored kind. I find black tea really bitter on its own, but sugar fixes that problem. XD