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So I might be running a SR4 one-shot in the near future. This is good, because I've missed running that game. I just need to get the one-shot plot written, since I've already decided to go with pre-generated characters for the players (it makes more sense that way; Shadowrun character creation can take a long time, even for people who know what they're doing, and most of the players in this game wouldn't have played it before.) I think that I can do a lot with this plot seed without obviously pushing my players along. It's something I've wanted to try to run since I first ran Shadowrun when I read the details about Las Vegas in 2070, so I'm looking forward to it, whenever it happens.
I plan to run it when my normal Sunday game is canceled, and I find myself hoping that my Sunday game gets canceled so that I can run it, but also so that I don't have to play in that game again. I mean... part of the plot from the last session offended me, and I didn't think that games were capable of that. But I'm the only one with a problem - the other six people and the ST all think it's awesome - so I can't justify complaining to myself, because I'd just be the one jerk who's complaining. And I know that if I just up and quit, or even stop coming to games for a few weeks to cool down and relax, I end up screwing the other players and the Storyteller over because of the way he's written his plot. So I end up just trying to suck it up. It's worked so far, until last week, when I had to leave the room in rage for a while so that I wouldn't start screaming at the guy.
I thought leaving the room instead of getting mad would diffuse the situation; apparently it didn't. But I have no idea what to do here; I don't know how to say, "I'm sorry, it's not you, I was horribly offended by your subject matter out-of-character and didn't want to lose my temper" without offending people. If there's one thing I've learned over the time I spent actively involved in fandom, it's that people get REALLY defensive over things that they love, and doubly so over things that they created. I have tried so many times to say something like, "I have this opinion about this thing, which does not extend to people who like it, JUST to the thing itself," and still end up having the people who like said thing get horribly offended about my opinion.
Still, even before this last game I was having trouble. I think it's because I'm not used to thinking on such an epic scale as this game is getting into. There's no room for character-driven stuff, which is what I really shine it, because it's gone off into "Hey, look what we can do, we're so awesome!" territory. But, again, everyone else at the table loves it. What am I supposed to do? I can complain and spoil everyone else's fun, I can try to learn to like it, or I can leave. I don't like those options. I mean, I might not be enjoying the game so much right now, but I want to keep helping the storyteller work on his homebrew stuff the way I have been, and I don't know if he'll want me to do that if I quit the game.
Ah, well. Meanwhile, back to writing this one-shot. Or however long it'll end up being.
I plan to run it when my normal Sunday game is canceled, and I find myself hoping that my Sunday game gets canceled so that I can run it, but also so that I don't have to play in that game again. I mean... part of the plot from the last session offended me, and I didn't think that games were capable of that. But I'm the only one with a problem - the other six people and the ST all think it's awesome - so I can't justify complaining to myself, because I'd just be the one jerk who's complaining. And I know that if I just up and quit, or even stop coming to games for a few weeks to cool down and relax, I end up screwing the other players and the Storyteller over because of the way he's written his plot. So I end up just trying to suck it up. It's worked so far, until last week, when I had to leave the room in rage for a while so that I wouldn't start screaming at the guy.
I thought leaving the room instead of getting mad would diffuse the situation; apparently it didn't. But I have no idea what to do here; I don't know how to say, "I'm sorry, it's not you, I was horribly offended by your subject matter out-of-character and didn't want to lose my temper" without offending people. If there's one thing I've learned over the time I spent actively involved in fandom, it's that people get REALLY defensive over things that they love, and doubly so over things that they created. I have tried so many times to say something like, "I have this opinion about this thing, which does not extend to people who like it, JUST to the thing itself," and still end up having the people who like said thing get horribly offended about my opinion.
Still, even before this last game I was having trouble. I think it's because I'm not used to thinking on such an epic scale as this game is getting into. There's no room for character-driven stuff, which is what I really shine it, because it's gone off into "Hey, look what we can do, we're so awesome!" territory. But, again, everyone else at the table loves it. What am I supposed to do? I can complain and spoil everyone else's fun, I can try to learn to like it, or I can leave. I don't like those options. I mean, I might not be enjoying the game so much right now, but I want to keep helping the storyteller work on his homebrew stuff the way I have been, and I don't know if he'll want me to do that if I quit the game.
Ah, well. Meanwhile, back to writing this one-shot. Or however long it'll end up being.
